I can admit that I am a pessimist, and as a pessimist it is very hard to be a human. Let me explain. As humans we like to imagine that our lives will be easy and good. Yet in my mind I know that a lot of it will suck. I always think that the best outcome is possible, but sometimes it’s just not. My instinct and my experience are at war. My dreams and my life are at war. My humanism and pessimism are at war. Or maybe I’m just a shitty pessimist.