I’m so pissed off! All I can do was think about him, damn it! How could he do this to me, consume all of my thoughts; but it wasn’t him it was me. And that was the worst part. I was torturing my self, on his facebook, his instagram. It is really just so sad. The fact that I am crazy about him, or just crazy, and he knows nothing. I wanted him to be here with me and I could just tell him. Who am I kidding, I wouldn’t do it. God I’m such a pussy. I get in my own way I make things so much harder that they have to be. Then people forget about me because I didn’t say anything. I just sat there scared, and dumb, and too cautious for my own good. And yes, this is now on the internet. Whatever, screw it.